So much has happened to me over the years and it really has taken a toll on me. Slowly I’m trying to figure out a few things and try to live my life at the best of my ability. As some of you may know it was not an easy childhood for me, lots of things happened that I had no control over, and I didn’t have the traditional upbringing that some of you may have had. I was told from a few people though, that I’m a fighter. But I’ve been living in fear….
When you have so much taken away from you, it makes you put a lot of things into perspective. I quickly learned what was most important to me and that was the well being of my family. When I was living up North and first got married everything was peachy king but it didn’t stay that way for long. I owned a business but when my husband and I got married, I decided to sell it and become a stay at home mom. My husband had just launched his own trucking business and things were good. Then 911 happened and our world was forever turned upside down. We lost everything and I mean EVERYTHING! Our home, cars, trucks and was almost forced into a homeless shelter. I was in college full-time, finishing up my degree and trying to maintain. We were at our wit’s end trying to figure out what to do. Finally my husband got a contract here in the south, so we moved and started our lives over. It was the best thing we could have EVER did but I will never forget that experience.
Not too many people were willing to help us either but that taught us a life lesson that its best to have your own. We recovered graciously and we’re doing just fine now but it left me with a bad taste in my mouth. After transitioning here I wanted a small place and cars that were paid for because I was scared of having someone take it all away again. I know now that we can do all things with Christ and I’m pushing forward to not live with the spirit of fear. People wonder why I drive the same old car, still live in the same apartment but like I said, I’m taking baby steps and although we can afford to live anywhere we want to now, I just want to make sure everything is ok before stepping out there and biting off more than we can chew.I have never tried to compete with others and try to hang with the Joneses! That will have you looking crazy! I’ve seen so many of my friends go through so much financially with losing their homes, uprooting their families a lot, cars repo’d, businesses lost, like we did and it makes me very weary. We’re comfortable right now but I think by the end of the year, we will be able to venture out. We have always been savers and I think this will be our year for new beginnings, wish us luck! Thanks for reading, till next time! xoxo
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